Workaholic tendencies

Dear Sherlock,

Do you feel like you throw yourself more wholeheartedly into your work when you are trying to not think about certain things? Is that why you analyzed the ashes?

Using work for avoiding other parts of your life is probably one of the easiest things to do. You are ignoring a problem but at the same time you feel very productive. “Look at all the work I’ve done! Just ignore the shambles of life around me.” That’s where I’ve been living. In between the traveling of course. I’m from up north (inland/central-ish), and have hit the south, east and west coasts in the last month. I’m running to the edges of the continent and working two jobs in an effort to avoid emotions and feelings that are bubbling up after remaining dormant for close to fifteen years.

Do you think you’ll still wonder about Irene ten years from now? What is it from your past that keeps you working overtime?

xoxo
AC

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New things and blurry experiences

Dear Sherlock,

How was your Easter holiday?

I tried something new on the Thursday before the long weekend and as a result, didn’t have much of a weekend. I tried hot yoga. I’ve never done yoga before and I’m not a fan of heat. I was wary going in but it wasn’t as hot as I thought it would be. And the yoga component was definitely harder than I thought it should be for a beginner class. I was really sore all weekend. I think I have to start exercising more. I did sign up for a month “trial” pass so I’ll be going again but I’m not sure how I feel about it.

Have you had that experience where you try something new, it’s neither good nor bad but you’re just a bit puzzled by it? I guess that may not happen to you that often, but I find as I get older it’s happening more and more. Things aren’t as black or white as they seem. Experiences themselves are being colored by grey or just being fuzzy. I have been saying that I’m going to try to do more things this year (other than work) regardless or time/cost/risk. I feel like I’m on my way.

Have you started investigating anything new this year? Done with ashes? I know it’s a ways into the year but I’m finally getting around to asking.

xoxo
AC

Airplanes and media

Dear Sherlock,

Did you hear about the plane crash? There is very little detail available about what caused the crash, only that it happened. I always wonder who’s releasing the information, or who holds the information and if there’s really no information. I never believe that the media reports all the known facts mainly because they really don’t know them. If I was in charge and could control the flow of information, and I knew who the media outlets were, I would definitely be spinning my own tales.

If something happens to you, that’s between you and one other person but a third person just observes, there is so much other nuance in play. There’s no real way to report on that situation without input from everyone involved. I also think there’s value to the observer in all this as when you’re engrossed in a situation in your head, you translate experiences differently.

In any case, I immediately wondered if this was a Mycroft level plot because it just didn’t add up. It’s so disheartening hearing about this. Statistically, I know that I shouldn’t be more worried about flying – it’s currently safer than it’s ever been – but it’s worrying all the same. I also feel that there was much more in play here. I’m interested to see how this unfolds.

xoxo
AC

An apology for my stupidity

Dear Sherlock,

I wish I had your memory for details!!

I should have asked you for help but I was pretty much cut off from everything. It’s funny to me that the ultimate security for accounts is a cell number, but what happens when your cell gets stolen? And the sim gets deactivated? And you have to wait a few months to pull the number back? Maybe it was foolish of me to have everything on my phone and to assume I would never get pick pocketed, but that’s life I guess. I have to stop relying on digital devices to my passwords. This was an absolute failing of mine. I finally (finally!) had a moment and remembered my login information for this part of my life. Could you believe I was capitalizing the wrong letters?  Password rules have gotten out of control.

I’m still not back into my twitter or tumblr accounts but close enough!

I’m going to start writing again to you..but this feels weird now. Did you just forget about me and move on? Should I bother? I didn’t forget about you while we thought you were dead, so I hope you extend the same feelings towards me.

xoxo
AC

Life catching up with me

Dear Sherlock,

I feel like it’s been ages.  I’m sorry,  although if your skills are up to snuff you’d probably have figured out that I’ve been sick.

Unfortunately I’m still travelling so I haven’t had the time to recover.  I checked my trip organiser and of the 217 days I’ve been on the road 72.

Anyways, I know that this sounds like excuses,  but I’ll be writing you regularly very soon again.

xoxo
AC

Being right

Dear Sherlock,

Do you get tired of being right? Or rather, do you get tired of knowing the outcome before other people? What if there was an element of chance to it?

The World Cup is finally over, and the team I predicted (Germany) won! Granted, it’s my team, as in the team I support so there’s a bittersweet edge to this victory. But when I first troth my allegiance before the world cup began, I was called a fool.

I was a bit worried as Neymar and Brazil played well however, in the end I was right. If only Argentina had better players (their biggest failing) they may have won, but I knew that Messi just couldn’t carry an entire team. Germany has so many players, that they really were a team to be reckoned with (not just a person). But I’m ecstatic they won.

I love this feeling of rightness. But I guess it doesn’t happen as often for me as it must for you.

xoxo
AC

p.s. I don’t think you ever told me who you were supporting? From the silence I’m going to assume England. (heh)

Forgiving and forgetting

Dear Sherlock,

How are things going? I’m a bit…furious. Do you forgive after a dispute? Or do you just file it away, waiting for the right occasion that the knowledge you have to be of some use? I feel like anger would be classified as an unnecessary emotion for you. I am in the category of people that I forgive and let the anger leave me, but I never really forget the said incident.

I often find anger unnecessary, but the more I think about it, I think any excess of emotion a bit hard to understand. I get it, but I don’t get it. Does that make sense?

Speaking of excess of emotion, did you watch the Germany – Brazil game? The crying fans in the stands were amazing to me. I’ve never been that emotional, but then again, Germany hasn’t really been beaten that badly before.

Onward ho to the finals! And onward and away from my feelings.

xoxo
AC